the adventures of JiL

unexpected

2008-04-05T08:00:00.002-06:00

사람일이란 참 모를일... 전혀 생각지도 않았던 일들이 벌어지고 있다. 절대로 나쁜일이 아니라 내가 원했던것이다. 내가 항상 말하는게 있다- 모든 일에는 이유가 있다. 정말로 그런거 같다. 이제까지 내가 살아온 경험으로 보면 그런거 같다. 하여튼 지금 일어나고 있는 상황이 조금은 당황스럽지만 나를 웃게 만들고 행복하게 만드니 전혀 겁낼 필요는 없는거 같다. :)

김 팍 샌날

2008-03-28T22:22:00.002-06:00

젠장.... 오늘은 진짜 김샌날. 너무 기대했었나? 하여튼 내가 오랫동안 원했던것을 갖지 못하니.... 너무 가까이 있었는데 잡지못하는 내가 답답하기도 하고... 오늘이 마지막 찬스였느디...

근데 정말 인생은 불공평할때가 많은거 같다. 내가 맘에 없는 사람은 나한테 너무 잘해준다. 아무리 봐도 정말 좋은 사람인데 내가 맘이 정말로 안간다. 정말로 안끌리는 사람- 근데 정말로 아까운 사람. 왜 안끌리는 것일까.

오늘 밤 나가서 마티니 몇잔 먹고 싶었지만 내일 스케줄이 정신이 없기 땜시 오늘은 그냥 얌전히있다가 낼밤 난리쳐야겠다.

Hurrah!

2008-02-12T10:00:00.001-06:00

My sectional couch is finally scheduled to be delivered on 2/19!!!! That is the same day I am taking my mom to the opera. So it all works out because we can hang all day at my condo and just head out to the city from my place. I still have yet to install curtain rods in my room so maybe I can use her help then. I've been putting it off because I need a tall ladder to reach the tall ceiling in my room.

I have been waiting a long time to get my property finished properly, but with an on-going, aggravating battle between the owners and the builder who's got a Napoleon complex along with many other nasty issues, I have used up all my patience and am now determined to just move ahead and decorate my place rather than waiting for this lunatic Napolen to admit his mistakes and make our lives more comfortable. It has taken me almost a year to find the couch that I ordered last month, and the order itself took more than a month! Anyway, it isn't what I was initally looking for- I wanted a buttery light brownish-grey (I love in-between, muted colors- they are the best to match with anything) leather couch that has a bohemian style with a twist of contemporary feel to it. I also wanted to see some curvature with nailheads, but it was going to be almost impossible to find something like that unless I worked with a custom furniture specialist, and I definitely did not want to shell out close to 10k for just a couch! Anyway, I visit Jayson Home and Garden in Lincoln Park from time to time because they carry my favorite Oly pieces (although this store has many collections, I still miss Liberty in Kirkland, WA where I used to live. I wanted to buy the whole store!!!), and this couch happened to be on sale!

My story does not end here though. The first time I saw it, I hesitated as I spotted another couch that came a little close to the style I wanted, but was the wrong color- dark brown!!! Yuck! Plus, it was too boxy, not comfortable at all, and one side of the couch was not quite perpendicular to the floor and was definitely crooked (yes, you all know I am anally picky). So I waited one or two weeks more until I went back with a friend and was confirmed by her that the sectional one is more comfy, and although not a leather couch, it has more warmth to it and more suitable for the style of my condo. The color is nice and it's got nailheads, too!!! Yuppeeee!!!! Right at the moment I decided to take it home with me and was speaking to the store manager, another sales person stepped in and whispered something in the manager's ear. The story is that there was another customer interested and wanted to call back to confirm her purchase. Since it was the only one in stock, I was told that depending on the other customer's decision, I would either get the one on the floor in case she is not interested or a brand new one at the sale price if she chose to purchase. So I waited and waited with my friend... and finally the other customer called back to confirm her purchase, so there it is- I am getting a brand new one, with free delivery, but would take 6-8 weeks. I really did not mind that as I have been waiting almost a year to find a couch for my place. So you see why and how I am excited to add this couch to my collection and can't wait to see it in my living room.

Now, my next project is to strip-sand my antique dining set and paint it dark brown or black and re-upholster the seats with brown-white mohair if I can ever find the material. I have been meaning to visit some special fabric stores, but I haven't found much yet so far. Then another project in process is for my bedroom and the guestroom. I stil need a bed frame although my bed now does not look too bad as it is illusioned (is that even a word, well it is in my dictionary!) by a nice duvette set. I recently placed an order for the mathing euro shams. So to give you an update on my guest room, which will also be my entertainment/meditation room, I plan to get a sofa bed. I don't typically get overnight guests and don't really need to crowd the room with a bed. So you see, I am still in search for several more things and I am taking it easy... very easy. Like I always am, I will not settle for anything else, so until I find the right pieces, I will not spend $$$ on something I will regret later on.

Anyway, I am, so far, loving my day off. There's a crap load of stuff to take care of and errands to run, but I will take it easy. I was looking forward to shoveling snow today, but it's the thin, light kind and does not need to be shoveled at all. Better get ready for the day and start taking care of my world today. I am definitely going to sit in the steam sauna at the gym today and just ohm~~~

frozen spirit

2008-02-12T01:09:00.000-06:00

Today was rather a long, annoying Monday. If I could just focus on what I like to do minus the paperwork, the dreading administrative work, etc. at work, I will be just peachy every day. I've realized that as this winter in Chi-town has been demonstrating unforgiving forces of nature and froze our brains off, so did the spirits of the mankind in this town. I was saddend for most of today at work to realize that I am living in the same world as these frozen spirits and thought of ways to make a difference... but how and where do I start? Hmmmm.....

a deceiving day...

2008-02-10T11:53:00.000-06:00

The bright sunshine this morning had woke me up early and it was pleasant to feel such warmth despite the early hour. Little did I know that the temperature outside is single digit. Yikes! Then I remembered what my last patient on Friday told me- that it will be subzero on Sunday. My goodness.... When will this freezing season be over? I can't wait till I can hit the beach and just lay mindlessly under the sun. I seriously long for the sizzling hot summer. Come on, summer!

finally

2008-01-30T07:15:00.000-06:00

Just yesterday, I finally renewed my Bally's membership. I had gotten pretty good offers in the past, but knowing that I would not utilize it that much, I ignored all those offers. However, since I've got goals to reach this year, I thought I give it a try. After all, Bally's is only a few steps away from my place. I mean, seriously, I could run there in 15 seconds. Just need to be very diligent about keeping my motivation level high...

my day off

2008-01-29T18:05:00.000-06:00

I always look forward to Tuesday since it is my only day off out of the week. Today was another relaxing day for me especially because it was a very gloomy and somber day. I forced myself to stay in other than taking Fifi to the vet. I was saddened by the reality that my baby is getting old and that she is developing more tumors- but benign ones, but hey, what can I do about those... I am just glad that she is still in good health and very energetic for her age. No need for any surgery, but I do worry.... It is my biggest wish that Fifi can live as long as I do.
Ok, let's move away from any morbid thoughts. I finally booked my trip to Japan! Hurrah!!! For the longest time, I was trying to use up my Korean Air miles, but they were being the biggest loser and annoying the heck out of me, so I had to shell out close to 15k for my roundtrip- of course, I'm not getting on KAL, but rather UAL. This is the downfall of staying in- shopping on-line and spending $$$, yikes... but I gotta get what I gotta get. ;p

cool things do happen

2008-01-27T07:52:00.000-06:00

It was another brutally cold day again yesterday and made it hard for me to get up in the morning. It was so warm and nice to be in bed and I allowed myself to be lazy since there was no work yesterday. But then again, it is not my nature to be lazy and staying in bed all day, so I called around and dragged one of my friends out downtown. While we were shopping, I realized that my watch was gone- not that it was something significant or super pricey but it was still sad. My intuition told me where it might be, and after about an hour or so of realizing the loss of my watch, I went back to the place and was surprised to find that someone had the decency to pick it up and not pocket it! I mean, it is a very nice watch and someone could have easily taken it home with her/him. It was very busy at the store, so I didn't really get a chance to ask who found it where that person found it, etc. But overall, I was pleased and happy to be back with my watch. Sometimes, this world isn't a bad place to be in....

greeting 2008

2008-01-22T13:25:00.000-06:00

OMG, I have not blogged in ages. Well, I guess a lot has happened in the last several months, but nothing drastic has happened in my life, like inheriting a fortune or meeting someone so perfect to marry (do I really want to?), etc. Some little things have happened though- like finally buying an SUV to get through the harsh Chicago winter, finally moving in and actually living in my condo, etc. I plan to make more things happen... I have been telling myself I should go on a vacation soon, but 2007 was a very hectic year for me. Oh, I just thought of an excuse why I have not been blogging often... I still have no internet access at my condo due to an indescribable personality of the builder myself and my neighbors are having to deal with. Will blog later on about that... Anyhow, time really does fly and 2008 is already looking pretty busy for me. It's great not having to deal with anything today... especially because a very fat 6 year old girl bit my middle finger yesterday. My finger was throbbing the whole day! I have never gotten bit like that before. I told myself I will stop being nice to my patients and start referring out more from now on. Come on, I need to live, live healthy.

update on anti-aa

2007-10-08T22:44:00.000-06:00

So if you have been reading my blog consistently, you have read about my history with aa airline (I don't think that they are even worth half a second of my lifetime to capitalize their name). Well, I thought I redeemed my miles for a bunch of magazines, but it is not happening and I realized that it's been sometime since I requested subscriptions. Funny how they keep disappointing me. I will forget about the miles I spent on the subscriptions. Who knows, maybe I will get these mags in two years. So be it. Let them be. I really don't even have the time to make phone calls around. Whatever!

finally...

2007-09-23T17:46:00.000-06:00

After several months of drama, I have finally started moving in my furniture. It's been a constant battle with the builder, and even till this day, I am annoyed that the property has not been completed to my satisfaction. There is still some majorly faulty areas in the unit and everytime I look at those spots, my blood pressure shoots up. Nonetheless, I am trying to stay positive as I am waiting for my punch list to be completed.

My days off and weekends have been very occupied in dealing with the constant drama that I have not had much time to hang out much. This is also the reason why I have not had the time to blog often and an obvious reason that I have not travelled so much this year compared to the last couple of years. I can't wait for all this to be done so I can enjoy the city life without much worry. My whole summer went by with really NOT MUCH achieved. What a bummer!!! I felt so pathetic yesterday that I booked a trip to SF, because it is time for me to get away and not think about some of these things.

And did I tell you that there's still LOTS of mosquito mobs out there? Geez, I got bit in several places when I was just walking out Fifi. They wanted to bite Fifi too, but I was protecting her by constantly swinging my arms around her that if someone were to look at me he/she would think I'm crazy. Whatever. I don't care.

Come to think of it, I have yet to get a new internet service at my place, but I don't know what to get.... Until then, I do not know how often I will be able to blog.... -_-

photo by J.Lee

지금

2007-07-29T18:01:00.000-06:00

친한 친구 하나를 보내고 나니 기분도 이상시리 꿀꿀하고.... 하지만 내가 소중히 아끼는 친구가한 선택에 만족하면서 이번 주말을 보냈다. 시애틀에서 돌아온 후 많은 정리와 다시 이 도시에 익숙해지는데 정말로 오랜 시간이 걸린거 같다. 끊임없이 항상 바빳고 성격상 가만히 있질 못하니 나한테 많은 시간이 있었을수가 없었다. 정신없이 일하고 내 자신 뒤치닥거리하는 것도 벅찬데 누구를 만나서 더 복잡한 생활을 하기가 싫었던것도 사실. 변명으로 들리나? 하지만 지금은 한숨 돌리고 난후, 내가 필요한 시간이 흐르고 나니 이제는 누구를 만나도 될거 갈은 느낌이 드는데...

오랜만에 한국 드라마를 봐줬쥐- 고맙습니다. 거기에서 나오는 장혁보고 완전 갔다. 난 별로 연예인들한테 환상을 갖거나 정신 못차려 본적이 전혀 없었다. 내가 아는 여자애들이랑 달리.... 그럴만한 사람도 보지 못했고. 하여튼 한국 사람이 그렇게 생기기는 힘든거 같다. 요즘 나오는 애들한테는 별 매력 못느낀다. 시스타 보이같이 생긴 남자들은 딱 질색. 에니웨이 장혁의 위앞니보고 교정시키고 싶단 생각을 잠시 했지만서도 그 얼굴에 그게 또 매력이고 그 이빨고치면 지금보다 매력이 떨어질거 같아 그냥 만족. ㅎㅎㅎ 장혁같은 남자만 나오라고 해, 내가 기꺼이 만나주마. ㅋㅋㅋ

Photo by RP

it's over!!!

2007-07-28T00:31:00.000-06:00

Finally, one of my best friends got married and is now someone's wife!!! It still hasn't hit me yet, but I am glad that this was one of the best weddings I've ever been to. Not because I was in it or because it was my best friend's wedding. All the hard work and many days of preparation has paid off, because we all had such a good time although our shoes killed us. I am also glad that tonight, she will be wearing the nighty that I gave to her. All I can say now is that I am so so proud of my friend to have met someone that cares for and loves her so so much.

Photo by J.Lee

successful party

2007-07-14T17:25:00.000-06:00

Today's bridal shower was a big success! My other best friend, RP, and I thought out everything and things worked out very smoothly. Let me just say that I am glad that it is over and done with. Two more weeks and my best friend will be married and this whole thing will be over. It will be a bitter sweet day for many of us. Cheers to all of us!

annoying night

2007-07-08T12:49:00.000-06:00

My friend's bachelorette party this weekend turned out all right. It first started with checking into our hotel suite- that was sweet. After dropping off our stuff there, we took a humid ride to dinner at a restaurant that didn't have AC working and ice in my water melting at a faster rate than I could gulp down the whole cup. The special activity that followed after we came back to our suite was not what we expected and was surprised with a substitute that didn't quite satisfy any of us. Because my day started early yesterday with patients starting at 9am, I was already getting tired and was ready to nap. I mean, my schedule yesterday was crazy and as soon as I was done with work, I fussed up to get ready ASAP then picked up another friend, so there was no chance for any type of break not to mention having time to nibble on anything. The night continued after the uninteresting activity- we chilled for a little while, then made a trip to a club that left with me with not many choices. We all cabbed to the club, intending to get buzzed, but as far as I can tell, I was not getting buzzed for the life of me- no matter how hard I tried... My plan left me much soberity ironically and little dinero after spending $$$ on alcohol.. I mean, I was buzzing for a total of two minutes when I gulped down several glasses of white peach sangria in an empty stomach. Seriously, my stomach was eating itself after waiting 10 hours since the breakfast. Well, after stuffing my sad stomach with a bunch of everything and lots of my favorite mussels, that buzzness completely went away and didn't know to come back even after pouring in martini and LOTS of shots in a row. I finally did what I usually do not do- I gave up. No motivation to dance the night away, no motivation to drink anymore. Time flew by watching other do dance-offs and I was more annoyed than ever that I decided to just head back. There were more things or I should say 'guys' that annoyed me throughout the night, and one even came off a little scary, but it was all good when I went back to the hotel and just chilled. All of us woke up early this morning and sat around talking about nothing and everything. On a day like today, it would be best to sit on the beach and nap, but I am sticking to my plan to get back in the game in the world of golf, so I am going to rest up and swing away this afternoon!

Christian Louboutin or iPhone?

2007-07-04T08:42:00.000-06:00

Ah, what a dilemma.... What do I do?
I am so tempted to get an iPhone as a b-day gift for myself. I already spent way too much $$$ last month on a pair of Louboutin pumps. Do I return the shoes and get an iPhone instead???
My dilemma continues....

golf and life

2007-07-04T08:18:00.000-06:00

OMG.... finally started practicing golf again in two year! I have no idea what kept me so busy the last couple of years, but it felt good to swing again. One thing i realized again which I had forgotten for some time is that it is seriously time to change out my irons. I've looked at some Callaway, Taylor Made, and Ping irons yesterday.... The ladies' clubs are definitely way too light for me and will be such a dramatic change from my Ping Zing swing. I grabbed some Taylor Made graphite clubs and those felt pretty good- turns out those are men's. I guess I'll just have to get men's clubs once again. More research to do in the next few weeks... That's more things I have to do... This is the kind of life I wish to have when I'm retired- hopefully early- play golf in the morning and chill under the sun on a beach everyday.... When I was in college I thought it would be cool to retire when I'm 30, and I really thoguht that I could make it work. If you asked me now, I would tell you I do not want to retire at age 30 (or perhaps I should say I can't, hahaha), because there's still so much more to do in life.... just so much!

비

2007-07-01T16:58:00.000-06:00

이렇게 좋은 날씨인데도 불구하고 집에 있다니. 난 멀쩡한데 자꾸 내 몸이 나보고 쉬라고 해서 오늘은 집에 붙어있는다... 아까 쇼핑 잠깐 한거만 빼고 오늘은 별로 한게 없네... 가만히 있는 성격이 아니라서 이런 날엔 비라도 오면 내 맘이 편안할텐데.

비오는 날은 기분이 좋다. 사람들이 많이 나와 있지않고 제각기 집에 들어가 있다는 생각에 기분이 좋아진다. 반면에 비많이 오는 날에 나가있음 짜증... 저번 화요일같이... 다운타운나가서 쇼핑하고 비취에 가려고 했던 나의 단아한 생각의 버블이 터져버렸음. 비가 쭉쭉 쏟아내려서 잘가지도 않는, 살것 하나도 없는 가게안에서 한시간이 넘게 죽치고 있었다. 에니웨이, 오늘같은 날은 그런 비가 왔음 좋겠다. 그러면 답답한 마음도, 짜증이 나는 마음도 조금이라도 시원할거 같다.

photo by J.Lee

awkward lingerie shopping

2007-07-01T16:28:00.000-06:00

This weekend, I finally put my ass down at home and really didn't do much. Several annoying things have been happening and I took it as a sign to stay put at home. Nonetheless, there's stuff to be done and I have been procrastinating shopping for some gifts, so I dragged my ass out and went shopping despite the fact that I was feeling like crap. One of my best friends is getting married the end of this month and I am also arranging her bridal shower. I've been too busy to get anything done and I was feeling bad. Anyway, I found a few stuff at Saks and knowing her all too well to know what she would like for her wedding gifts, I picked out some.... hmmm..... rather revealing, provacative lingerie. My friend and I are not the same size by all means, but I had to try those on to see the silhouette and to get an idea of how it would fit on her. Well, as I was making trips to the fitting room, the lady working there was chuckling! WTF. She was probably thinking I was shopping for myself and assumed that I was buying those to impress someone- uh, 난 그럴사람도 없걸랑요... 젠장... then I thought, there's nothing wrong with that. She wouldn't have chuckled at guys shopping for lingerie.
Anyway, I did get something very sexy and sophisticated for my friend. And while I was at it, I ended up getting something pretty for myself as well. Perhaps I could impress someobody... hehe.

anti-aa

2007-06-30T21:24:00.000-06:00

People that know me well know very well that I don't like to fly American Airlines. I think the last time I was on an AA plane was when I flew to Paris with my sister close to 10 years ago. The trip back and forth on that AA made the worst impression of any airlines I had flown, i.e. a drunk stalker passenger that didn't stop talking to me progressively got worse because this stupid flight attendant kept giving him more alcohol, and on the way back, I had to experience a horrific flight thanks to a psychotic, bipolar drugged-up flight attendant that was kicking around passengers' bags and refused to get me and my sister any type of beverage, not even water!!! She was getting mad like a crazy cow at passengers for no apparent reason and had this Nazi attitude about everything. Feeling extremely uneasy and disturbed by the digusting experience, I wrote a formal complaint email to AA. Eventually, some dude called and offered a free ticket, and I flat out refused. That's how much I was disgusted by them and I still am. Some of you know me very well- once I am turned off, there is no coming back at all... it is extremely difficult for me to recover. As I started to travel more often, I became a faithful UA user since then... I'm very stubborn to not fly AA even till this day. My travel buddy flies no one but AA, so we always end up booking different flights, and it will stay that way as long as I live.

Well, just a few days ago, I received a letter with my mileage summary from AA and an invitation to redeem miles for magazine subscriptions. This is the first time they sent me such letter. Why not, I thought... Most likely, I will not be flying AA in the future anyhow unless AA is the only airline existent on this planet, and I know the miles will expire this year, so I did what I usually don't do- order subscriptions. Fortunately (?), I didn't have enough miles to get a reward trip, and used up all but 24 miles to get nine different magazines- no, they are not all fashion magazines. Some business, golf, FOOD, and home interioir mags... Although I've left the measly 24 miles- unused, this is more or less a final closure that will forever close the door to AA.

2nd eye damage in my life

2007-06-18T20:58:00.000-06:00

Okay, so more things are happening, but not all of them are good. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later, but it finally happened yesterday. -_- It's no joke when I say I've been suffering from dryness of both my right and left eyes. I use artifical tears and it does help to watch sad movies so I squeeze some liquid from my idle tear glands and get a chance to wet my eyes.

This all came about when I started wearing contact lenses since high school. My eyes were so dry that when my eye doc wanted me to try gas-permeable lenses because she claimed that my vision will improve, I almost commited suicide! I was getting nauseated from my lenses moving around everytime I blinked- yes, everytime eyeballs moved, I could see the edges of the lenses as white blurry rims..... I had to suffer like that for months. Anyway, my incompetent eye doc still did not make any diagnosis and I suffered.... Finally she let me try soft lenses after I begged and begged, and just like night guards, once you go soft, you never go back to the hard ones! To make long short, due to the severe dryness, I ended up with a severe eye infection in 2005. I was forever banned from wearing contacts (and lasik surgery is contraindicated in my case), but I cheated after behaving for months. Then recently, I felt it- felt that severe dryness. I changed my disposable contacts yesterday before I went out to the beach, but it hit me really hard all of a sudden. Couldn't do much until I made it home. That needle-poking pain... WTF- when I looked in the mirror, it was so much worse than the first infection. I could see the damage on my right cornea... the same eye I had trouble with. Since my life is at stake and I have yet to get a disability insurance, I will be seeing my ophthalmologist (not the old optometrist- don't even know what the hell happened to her) first thing in the morning tomorrow. Well, I had to see patients all day with my glasses on and I really did not feel normal at all.

I don't know about you people, but when I can't see too well (because when you wear glasses, you don't get an accurate peripheral vision as you do when wearing contact lenses), I also can't hear too well. If you haven't experienced that, well.... I guess I'm just a weirdo...
photo by YJK

my handwriting to blame...

2007-06-16T18:24:00.001-06:00

Ok, so I have not been blogging as faithfully as I promised myself previously. That is because I don't have much going on in my life right now. Things are pretty dormant. I have not been taking gazillion trips like I did the last few years, work is work, weekends are spent doing pretty much the same things I usually do every weeekend. Anyway, I thought I mention something that's never happened to me before.

As usual, I was checking all the charges that were made to my credit cardS and found two of them to be incorrect! WTF! So I looked up the original receipts- It's a good thing I keep all my receipts- yes people, I keep all of them, and on a daily basis, I record all my expenses so that I won't have to go insane and call 911 in January when I have to do my tax return. I am extremely organized and anal about categorizing all my expenses so I can maximize my tax deductions- yes people, you'd be surprised how much you could save if you were diligent about keeping things organized. Anyway, what I wanted to say was those incorrect charges were made at restaurants, and I'm assuming the tip amount and the total amount were probably not legible. In total, I lost less than a dollar, but still, it sucks that I have to pay for my artistic handwriting.
Ha, you would know if you ever saw my signature. But anyhow, I did learn a valuable lesson this time. I will know to write legibly on those stupid restaurant receipts.

photo by J.Lee

weekend drama

2007-06-10T19:22:00.000-06:00

오늘도 나의 땡끄를 끌고 다운타운으로 나가주었다. 나가는 길에 또다시 스피드할수 있어서 기분전환에 perfecto. 아침에는 더울거 같았지만 막상 비취에 나가니 바람불고 햇님은 구름사이로 숨어버리고 나올 생각을 하지않았다. 여름이면 항상 태우는 나는 작년에 너무 여행하는라 $$$을 많이 써서 이번 년도에는 좀 참기로 했기때메 미시간 호수의 우습지도않은 꾸정물 파도로 어는정도 맘을 달래기로 결심. 가증스러운 꾸정물을 바라보며 magic wand같은거로 저 브라운 물을 아루바의 아콰물로 바꿀수만있다면.... 이상한 생각까지했다. 근데 오늘날씨는 별로 안바쳐주었기에 다음 주말이 벌써 기다려진다. 엄마랑 아빠왈, "너는 안태워도 까만애가 왠만하면 참지..." 그래도 지금 내 모습은 내가 볼땐 너무 히끼무래하다... 힘없는 두부같이...

오늘은 우리 애기 생일이기때메 집에 일찍(?)들어와서 조그마한 생일파티를 해줬다. 짜쉭 너무 귀엽게는 생겨갸지고. 정말로 눈에 넣어도 안아픈 내 애기다. 어제는 내 옆에서 천장이 날라가게 코를 골며 자는데 진짜로 과관이였음. 나중에는 잠꼬대까지 해가며 자는데 깨우니까 화들짝 놀라기까지하는 귀여운 짜식.

방금 친구가 전화해서 이번에 결혼하는 친구 bridal shower를 우리둘이 플랜하겠다고 얘기했다는데 솔찍히 이제까지 브라이드메이드한다고 드레스값에 (전혀 내스타일도 아니고, 한번 입고 말것을....), 7월에 있을 크레이지 bachelorette party에 들어가는 비용 (호텔에 방몇게 잡았음), 그런데다가 결혼식이 금요일이라 그날은 일 재끼고 목요일은 rehearsal dinner라서 그날 환자 많이 못보지, etc. 생각하면 기분이 영 아님. 내가 결혼하는것도 아닌데, 정말 돈 많.이.든다. 친한 친구라서 해줄수있지 아무게 브라이드메이드했음 돌아가셨을뻔. 이제 얼마안있음 condo closing도 해야하는데 돈쓰는거 진짜 재미없음. 이럴 돈있음 여행을 가는건데, 너무 너무 슬퍼진다.... 흑 흑...

오늘 또 요가도 못하고 쓰잘때기없이 시간만보냈다... 젠장...

photo by J.Lee

speed, baby

2007-06-10T09:24:00.001-06:00

On the way to the city yesterday I was pleasantly surprised to see almost no traffic. Thanks to this rare chance to speed a little more than usual- it was a good way to relieve some of my distress. My beautiful, sturdy tank (v-8, hp of almost 500) knows to speed well and performs to my expectations. I wish Chicago kept the kind of weather we had yesterday- it was perfectly breezy with the perfect amount of sunshine- of course, no humidity. Walking along Lake Michigan made me realize how pretty this city is although I ended up getting blisters on my feet from walking in heels.... so stupid.... My plans to run today got ruined, but whatever happens, happens. Oh no, I still have to make up the missed yoga sessions from the last two days. Craptacular!

photo by J.Lee

또 다시

2007-06-09T00:03:00.000-06:00

어젯 밤에 요가를 끝마치고 매트위에서 잠이 들어버렸다... 젠장... 한 시간하고 쓰려졌으니.... 오늘은 주말이 시작이라 그런지 내일 두시간할거 생각하고 제끼기로 했다. 오늘은 하루종일 환자를 정신없이 봤더니 좀 피곤하긴 하네. 내일은 날씨도 좋다는데 환자가 빽빽하게 스케줄이 됐네... 젠장... 일안하는 토요일에는 날씨가 드럽고 일해야하는 날은 날씨가 화창하다. 내일 비치에라도 나가줘야 할텐데.... 삐삐는 이빨닦여줬더니 내 옆에서 지금 쓰러져 자네... 두눈을 아주 꼬옥 감고말야.... 귀여운 짜식. 이렇게도 귀여울수가 없다 우리 애기는. 이틀만 있음 우리 애기 생일이다. 더 이상 늙지않고 나랑 한 평생 같이 살았으면 하는 바램이 너무 간절하다.